....feeling calmer....

.....well I managed to get more concrete and clear information last night so was able to understand exactly where things stand which is what I have wanted all along. Some of it is good, and some of it not so good....what a meltdown though....this journey is so hard and such a new and different experience, it is hard to imagine how to react or feel and sometimes the feelings get all muddled....yesterday was not a good day and I'm sure there will be many not good days, today is a good day.... I was glad for what happened because now I understand what was a bit of a mystery before. While the wait might still be long, at least now I have a more realistic picture...that is until the next meltdown!...Thanks for the messages of support and helping me through the meltdown to the calm puddle that I am today....