Happy 22 months birthday Matteo...

....still can't believe that in 2 months I'll have a two year old running around!!....to celebrate tomorrow we hope to have some dairy queen ice cream after getting some passport photos taken, for him to update his passport, for me for my 2nd adoption application.  As I was saying to E and C, I'm not sure this is all going to happen, but I started this whole adoption journey with the idea of two children in mind....and while the journey to Matteo was full of its own twists and turns, I am trying to trust that this next child will come into our lives if it is meant to be.

  I remember just before I got Matteo's referral in July of 2010, I had sort of given up and felt it wasn't going to happen...a part of me had decided that if I did not get a referral through the summer and I was asked to do a homestudy update, as it was expiring at the end of September, then I was going to let go and trust that it was not meant to be. I sort of feel the same now, in the sense that when I thought of getting on this roller coaster again (I hate roller coasters..was on one only once and promptly threw up at the end of it..) anyhow back in January all I could think of was the infinite wait, life on hold, uncertainty, desperation, fear, joy, and all sorts of emotions...anyhow I'm not sure at what point but somewhere between Jan and now, I came to accept that if Matteo doesn't have a sibling we would be okay, just as I had accepted that if Matteo, or at that point, some idea of a child, would not come into my life, I would be okay.  You know sort of like when someone says you have to let go and let God work in your life....and trust that whatever happens you'll be okay.... Anyhow I sort of feel that again, and am perfectly happy and will not feel frustrated (then again I might with some things )if it doesn't work out, I feel at peace with that, but at the same time I know it is something I will always regret if I don't at least try...so I'm trying and yes going to get my barf bags ready for the roller coaster ride.

 So the reality is, things have changed slightly at the agency with how they are handling files...it turns out that I will only be put on a list once my homestudy is approved at the ministry, so that approval date is what will decide where I'm at...once that happens if I have understood correctly I will also be logged in, in Vietnam....so we are hoping that we can get the update done asap...or at least submitting by end of June early July, which I believe was the time period that my first homestudy was sent to the ministry..so I like that....and then, I, we, like many other families wait...but I am blessed to have someone to wait with now...

I have decided to go the special needs route, 0-24 months, minor correctable special need....and while it is not a hard a fast rule, the ministry would like Matteo to be at least 18 months older than his sibling....I am open to either sex, though I guess I think I am hoping for a girl, but don't think I will specify....so that's where we're at at the moment on the adoption #2 front...

As for Matteo and his new daycare, he is doing remarkably well...still transitioning but for the past couple of days he hasn't cried when I've dropped him off so that is great....he has a few caregivers, but two are the main ones in his room, and two floaters....it is a great place...hope to get some other photos but here are a few, a couple from the daycare and then one taken today, with Matteo trying to wear mommy's hat...he has such a great sense of humour, when I almost put my hat on him at the daycare, as soon as we got home he wanted to try it out and wore it around the house while he played....