The two other books are still in process…still trying to convert the blog from the wait to the time of referral and then to travelling to adopt…it is taking longer as I am editing out certain blog posts in order to just frame the wait and time to and in Vietnam. However am still having trouble with deciding where to begin and where to end…. The third book is the more personal birth story book and family book and that one is still in the thinking/idea stage. I have the special book and special paper but so far, no other progress.
Then there's the other book…I have a publisher interested in my dissertation; however, it needs to be revised in order for them to fully consider whether they will go forward with the project. I have finally set a schedule and chapter one is due next week!! I'm behind on it too!!
…all of these projects were and are a distraction from adoption #2…and of course not to mention, being mother to one little active and mischievous and full of humour and song and at times a screamer with challenging behaviour…and not to mention having a full time job….
….and of course still no news on the adoption front, though it seems to get harder and harder each day with no news. I was really hoping by this year to have a new love in our lives, but fate, destiny, has its own time and place. Matteo asks for a sister almost daily. Have realized part of his asking is that at his daycare many of the little ones in his program all have siblings and/or their families have welcomed a second child within this last year. He sees them all the time and the siblings talk about their brothers and sisters too. So of course every time he asks about this, I try to tell him that if we are meant to have a sibling then it will happen…..and we pray to God too. Meanwhile I do find myself nesting. Making lists of what I will need and reviewing how I prepared for Matteo's referral.
….we've been following a family who just went to adopt their second little girl…they've had a rough few days of a little one grieving and the family holding on hour by hour…its been as if I was holding my breath for them too….I've had tough days at school…May is a hard month in high school for students, summatives to prepare for, course work to finish and exams to study for…sometimes the stress fuels very bad choices and behaviour…at times my day blurs such that I'm not sure if I dealing with my almost 4 year old son or my 16 year old students…today the family posted that things seem to have turned a corner and the little one is eating and smiling a bit….such a joy to read….and students were more focused today and even Matteo cooperated too…as soon as he saw me at daycare he ran to me to tell me we had to go inside to get a special surprise for me…a beautiful card he made with his hand print and some lovely tissue paper flowers and a couple of rice crispy squares with smarties on top……there were two….he kept telling me he loves me all the way to his locker bin…..such a sweety pie!!…though of course he has his eye on one of those rice crispy squares and especially those smarties.
Tomorrow I will be attending the funeral service for my friend's mother who was in her 100th year of life and sadly passed away a few weeks ago. It was a blessed life for sure and I am sure that during the service, while I will be there to support my friend, I will also be thinking of my mother who died 9 years ago. I will also be thinking of Matteo's birth mother too and will say a prayer for her too. In life loss seems to always be intertwined with joy.
Afterwards I will be with my sisters as we will have a mother's day barbecue together…..so for now my family is at peace…….and all is mostly well with the world.
…So while I am trying to relax on this Friday night just before this special Mother's day weekend I thought I'd share some of the thoughts that have been swirling through my head during a very busy time while also sharing some highlights from Matteo's adoption memory book.
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