2 days to go...

Well 2 days from now I will be arriving in Toronto and will try to find the couple I'll be travelling with. Hopefully I will try to relax but I doubt it, I always get even more excited at airports!!.

.......today a busy day, feeling nervous, excited, scared, and joyful with a smile still in my heart. Yet I still have things on my "to do" list that were there yesterday!!...had hoped to try to make it to a movie tonight with my cousin but ended up cancelling ......just felt I needed to get my things caught up...and things just seem to take longer and longer.

Thanks for your message Chantal and yes I too hope I can get Matteo as soon as possible. And yes Paula I too look forward to meeting Tracey soon in Vietnam.. As for your suggestions Christine, I just want this time to go by quickly.... I have had a lifetime of cappuccino's, sitting with friends, free time to travel, come and go as I please....I have been waiting for Matteo for a long time so time on my own has stopped being something pleasurable as I'm ready to move forward to something else. While I don't know how Matteo will feel about me, and how the trauma of removing him from all that is familiar will feel for him, I am so so so so ready to open my life to him and let his needs come first....so yes, I will try to enjoy this time, not so much for what I will lose, sleep, free time, satisfying my needs, but instead as a time when I was so looking forward to all I will gain by having Matteo as my son, to care for and share my life with, and to help him grow and mature and become the person he is meant to be....