Montreal moment....

Medical #3 or was it #4.....

Well the news I got yesterday was that I should go ahead and update the medical....needless to say was not very happy to hear that. I get knots in my stomach every time more and more paperwork needs to be done and no referral in sight.....

Deadlines...

Well I'm sitting on my deck with my morning coffee...a beautiful day is unfolding here and yet all I think of is logging on to check to see if there is any news....and sadly there is not....on Friday I contacted my agency to see if I should go ahead and update my medical. It expires on June 15, and while it is still a month away, I want to make sure to get an appt. etc...Not sure at this point if I'll have to then pay for a new medical and/or if my doctor will just sign a new form; however, don't want to have any "paperwork" glitches etc....Anyhow so depending on what response I get, that is if they say to get another medical then my wait continues, if they say that the one they have is good, then perhaps my wait won't be for much longer....in the meantime I continue to try to keep busy...M. and her daughter visited last weekend, but it was rainy etc. The tulip photo I posted was taken by M., and we managed despite the cold and rain to get some good pictures as the tulip festival is in full swing here in Ottawa. Needless to say while we were there, I imagined next year visiting dow's lake with my child and it seems that in addition to the tulips, my focus was on all the babies with their families....so....all this to say, I wait and wait, and then when I think I can't wait any longer, I wait some more........

Tulip Festival

....feeling calmer....

.....well I managed to get more concrete and clear information last night so was able to understand exactly where things stand which is what I have wanted all along. Some of it is good, and some of it not so good....what a meltdown though....this journey is so hard and such a new and different experience, it is hard to imagine how to react or feel and sometimes the feelings get all muddled....yesterday was not a good day and I'm sure there will be many not good days, today is a good day.... I was glad for what happened because now I understand what was a bit of a mystery before. While the wait might still be long, at least now I have a more realistic picture...that is until the next meltdown!...Thanks for the messages of support and helping me through the meltdown to the calm puddle that I am today....

Very upsetting news....

I'm very upset right now. As some of you know I contacted my agency about a week and a half ago to see what was going on as I had no news from them. Recently I discovered that they had email problems so I resent my message last night trying to ask what number on the list I was and some kind of info. I finally did hear back this morning wth an apology that they are getting lots of messages etc. and hard to get back...that in itself left me upset, as I have suggested to some of you, I have been concerned at how big or how many things the agency is trying to deal with and wondering what is going to be left unattended...well I feel my file is left unattended....I was told in late Nov. to update my documents, which I did in record time, and that a referral should come within 3 months....well now I am not told what number, I am only told soon and that there are a "few" families ahead of me?? when I thought I should be next, and now am told that between referral and travel to expect at least 5 months and this is the most devastating part, to not expect to travel before early 2011!!!!....so that would mean the 3 months to referral they told me in Nov. is now stretched to possibly not getting a referral until August, ???? I am just not understanding anymore...I have sent an email back....but am just so upset at the moment, I just keep thinking this is such a cruel process for all concerned and I really don't understand how timelines are calculated anymore.....

No News but more preparations....