Well, I finally have the date for my medical procedure, April 10. I was told it would be within six months and sure enough, April is the 6th month. While I go between panic and calm, for the doctors it is a routine, and a straightforward procedure, not surgery, but not without risk...for me, there are different emotions. I worry about me, I worry about Matteo. I would worry if I wasn't worried, but know this is normal to feel this way. It is fitting that it will take place so close to Easter, a time of renewal, rebirth and in some ways it will be, maybe the beginning of rebirth and renewal for my family.
I hope after this is in our past, we can move forward to the birth of another family member. So for now, I pray, and I celebrate another Easter with a deeper understanding of renewal and rebirth.
I'm not sure if I'll post until after, but will not make that decision.....there are a number of posts I've started but have not finished...the heart has not been moved to write, until now. So if you are reading this, say a little prayer for me, for us, that all goes well and life begins again.
Happy Easter and may your renewal and rebirth bring you to a deeper faith and a deeper meaningfulness of life's mysteries and miracles.
