Just because it's Wednesday....

...and to answer Elizabeth's question...Matteo had a very good day in daycare today...as I arrived he was playing outside and he came running to me, happy as a little bird and as I turned to the caregivers, they both said what a good day he had.  Of course they don't like to have to tell parents that their child was not happy and I'm sure as I did when I was a teacher, always feel it is all my fault and that I should do better...so I try, and I know they tried, and they were very happy for him and for them, but again transitioning with caregivers is one thing, but dealing with pink eye and a molar all at the same time is very challenging...they are great and I do not blame them in the least....I knew it would take a bit of time for him to adjust and I'm sure today his molar and pink eye were not bothering him as much. I'm sure he will still have off days, but am looking forward to getting back into the rhythm we were in...then again, just when we get into it, I'm sure it might be time for him to head to the even nicer preschool set of two rooms....so some ups and downs and some okay and bad days...I guess the nature of parenting...so it is important to hang onto the good ones.  Today was  a good one and the toddler room was visited by a children's librarian from our main library and Matteo even told me he enjoyed the books....we were planning to visit it this summer some time as it is walking distance. I so want to continue to nurture Matteo's love of books and was so happy to hear he had a good day and was able to enjoy the class visitor!!

.....I've been so emotional lately...felt this way a bit when I was awaiting my referral for Matteo...I've never been pregnant but know that women can feel very and more sensitive and emotional during the pregnancy and somehow that is how I feel, I cry with little provocation. Tonight however as I was scrolling down my facebook homepage, S, had posted some photos of her son on the day of her G&R.  M. was also from the same orphanage as Matteo. The photos made me emotional and then she posted their adoption video...well, the floodgates opened and I cried through all 7 minutes of it and still kept crying afterwards. It is so hard to explain the experience of adoption and the experience of Vietnam. I'd like to try to write about it one day and want to capture the feelings if I can. However for now I feel pregnant (maybe that explains the extra pounds) and not just that I've been sitting at the computer more with my job???...sympathy pregnancy...wonder if anyone has written about that in relation to adoption?!  Regardless, it was such an amazing journey, an adventure as the video that S. posted states and so very emotional......Both of our families are hoping to adopt a second time so we are both hoping to have that adventure again soon in Vietnam....

...So an emotional day, a happy Matteo at the end of the day, and a very emotional evening thinking and feeling the second adoption under my skin and swooshing around in my heart. 

I will end the post with a couple of photos of Matteo very much into his cars and trains and all kinds of vehicles lately. On Monday I had put away his train track and when he realized it, he got very upset. I try to alternate some of his toys when I see that he isn't playing with them, and well, that is just not going to be possible as I'll have to discuss it with Matteo first. He is so good at making decisions but as I tell him often, sometimes it will be mommy that has to make the decision regardless of him having an opinion on the matter. Tonight after we dropped into Luciano's for mommy's coffee, some special cookies and a kinderegg that Matteo opened so quickly that we had to buy it, I had promised Matteo that we would put the train track together again...and we did and he was even happier.  The photos weren't taken today but last week but they do capture Matteo's energy just like the multi-tasking photo I posted a few days ago.....